Are you ever just bored with your life and no amount of planning, vacationing or even warm weather (after a very long winter – or so it seemed) seems to pull you out of your funk?
It seems like I have had a hard year. Nothing major happened that I can point to; it was just all the little things that were the same this year as they were last year, and the year before that, and the year before that…well you see my point. It is not that I don’t like what I am doing per say, it just is a lot of sameness and fringed with a lot of small disappointments.
Life often makes me feel like I am a hamster on a wheel, always running and never getting anywhere. I am ready for a change, that is certain…and I have to say that I am a girl that typically does not relish change.
Maybe I just want to feel noticed. Do you ever feel like you go about your day completely invisible to everyone – well until supper is suppose to be on the table or someone needs a drive somewhere? But honestly, even when I go shopping now I will typically just go through a self-checkout counter, in and out totally unnoticed. Most days I seem to spend more time talking to my dogs then humans. Some time days will go by where the only people I have spoken to are my kids, which I guess the kids are an upgrade to the dogs, but with teenagers sometimes I have to wonder if the dogs are smarter! Well less hormonal for sure! And does arguing count for a conversation?
Today I was so bored that I ran my cart down a Costco isle and jumped on the back – my son Jesse just rolled his eyes and said, “really mom, everyone is going to think you are high”. As I said before – teenagers are a special breed. All the other bored moms watching me probably just thought I feel off my rocker, that the stress of Costco finally made me snap.
Since some of you know, I am an emotional cooker and eater, I am going lace up my shoes, and go for a quick run before I whip myself up some comfort food tonight – actually a comfort drink. I am leaning towards something cold and sweet, something frothy with just a twist of hmmm…rum??? I even have little umbrellas that I can put in it if I want to. So I will sit on my front porch and watch the world go by while drinking my umbrella drink while dreaming that I am really on some fabulous island, watching a breathtaking sunset over the ocean, with a party all around me!
Hope your evening is even more exciting...
Christine
Your comment about the cart at Costco is so funny, because just this last week at Costco I was outside and ran and then jumped on the cart. My 17 and 21 year olds just looked at each other, lol! If you live on the west coast I'll meet you and we'll race, haha!
ReplyDeleteI remember having times of a discontent in my life, where I would think "Is this all there is, Lord? Really? This is all I get?"
These moments didn't last, and thankfully the Lord got me out of them, but sometimes yeah, I did feel bored or ignored or even unappreciated.
I'm so glad we can go to Him to fill up our tank when it starts to get empty! (((Hugs))) and I hope you enjoyed your run.
~ Nan
if it makes you feel any better, I still read your blog, and get really excited when I see you've updated! I don't even remember how I found it, but I love your commentary about life and the main thing that drew me in was your love for your life...that it is nothing wild or extravagant, but that you chose your life and you love your choice.
ReplyDeleteI had a similar "funk" a year ago, and even though I had excitement (had a baby) that year, I was still just kind of bored with the monotony of everything. I tried planning a trip, and went on the trip, but it didn't really help. What DID get me out of my funk was running....so maybe you are on the same track I was :) If you haven't done one before, try signing up for an organized race with a goal that will be difficult but not impossible to reach, like a 5K or 10K...then lace up.
Here's to a more exciting week! :)
Christine, I think banananutmeg might be onto something. Maybe you just need one new, different thing going on. I would absolutely be your gatorade holder if you ran in a 5 or 10k. ;)
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